It's been a hard week. It's a long story, some of it I'll tell, some I won't. I started off the week, Monday morning, pretty good. I was on top of work and feeling good. This should have been a sign to lay low, and enjoy the tranquility. I chose violence (metaphorically), and it ended badly. It started when my Snapchat was banned, I've done research on how to handle that, all of learned is that unless I'm going to go buy a new phone, and get a new phone number (which isn't happening), I am without my most used and favorite app. This is emotional for me, because not only did I lose contact with people I enjoy talking to, Snapchat's filter's have been a method in letting go of my self hatred and gaining confidence. I know that's ridiculous. I may be fat, but damn I make it look good. That was the beginning of a less than quiet emotional break down (I blame the fact I've been off my mental health medication for a couple months and desperately need my mood stabilizer). On top of that, I've had the flu, even today, while seemingly my migraine is gone, I certainly don't feel normal. I fell behind at work, causing me to work 10 1/2 hours on Friday, which didn't improve my mood in the least. But! I'm not going to vent about a rough week through this entire post. And while I would put money on the fact that someone in my personal life is out to get me (well at least enough to report my account six times in one day), continuing to put time and energy into that is a waste. What am I going to do instead?
Well first, I'm going to finish writing my weekly blog post, then I'm going to do a bit of cleaning. Probably try to coax my new kitten, Shuri, from under the furniture. I'm going to focus on the things in life that actually matter. I may not be enjoying my loved one's today (I don't want to pass the flu around), but I will take a deep breath, and remember that the internet is a silly place, and there's little reason to take it too seriously. It's unhealthy to be so invested in it that losing an app could ruin your week. I'm going to sit down and plan out the first five episodes of my podcast, maybe I'll even start recording. I'm going to relish in the fact I only work three days next week, my plan is to finish the edits on Code Red during my four day vacation, and get to see some people I'm missing.
How is Code Red doing? Well the first ten chapters have been gone over and edited on paper. After I finish the other twenty two, I'll do once last look over, before I begin putting together the final draft. I'm certain this will take a while, but my goal is to have it done, realistically, at the end of January. The holidays will definitely take a lot of my attention over the next couple months. I've been doing a bit of procrastinating, but I'm going to buckle down and get it done. After that? Well I'll have to get book two done. It only took me five months to write the first draft of book one, maybe I can beat my five years of editing, and have book two finished by the end of next year. But my goals for 2023 is a post coming a bit later.
Taila Out.
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